22:09:45mintywell, i mean... if other seasonal depressions exist i dun see why summer's not an option for it
22:10:19mintyif it's uncharacteristic for you, and you can't pinpoint what it is, it's an option?
22:11:25shinmeraI think it's a combination of work stress, my usual problem with high standards and envy, and a knock-on effect from anon's commission stuff.
22:12:02shinmeraI appreciate him wanting to commission stuff from me, but I've always known that I'm not cut out for that kinda thing and it puts pressures on me in ways that just fuck everything up.
22:12:42shinmeraI'm not sure if the drawing depresso is really entirely caused by that but I imagine it's at least a part of it.
22:13:22shinmeraand I don't think me not drawing has ever really led to me feeling great.
22:14:22mintythe dopamine jolt of making and finishing a thing is real
22:18:19mintymy brain is garbage but in other ways
22:18:34mintysitting around waiting for the mood to do the thing
22:18:41shinmeraas if anyone with a nongarbage brain would hang out here
22:19:00shinmerathat's why chris isn't in chat except for saturdays
22:19:44mintythen, when start doing the thing, don't finish the thing until it's completely done regardless of how long the thing takes and then my back hurts from being hunched over the thing and head hurts from smell of paint on the thing etc but stil it's fucking done yaaaay
22:20:46shinmeraanyway, I still feel like I'm gonna cry for no reason soon, so I'm just gonna fuck off and sleep.