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19:41:40
shinmera
I'm sure that's part of it, but mostly just feeling like I suck and am not good enough.
19:53:16
shinmera
But I'm not sure anyone can help me with these things. Maybe that in inself is a problem as well.
19:59:38
shinmera
Anyway, I'm reading a romance/slice of life comic and that stuff always makes me very conflicted. On one hand it makes me happy and giddy to read it because it's enjoyable to indulge in such things, but on the other hand it also always makes me feel lonely and desperate. One aspect of that is that I know these comics depict something that is easily mistaken for "slice of life" but is actually extremely romanticised and fudged to specifically be appealing, and thus presents something that is actually quite far removed from anything in reality
20:00:31
shinmera
Or put in simpler terms, it presents a fantasy, and I know it is one, but it feels like it shouldn't be one.
20:01:56
shinmera
https://mangadex.org/title/0aea9f43-d4a9-4bf7-bebc-550a512f9b95/shikimori-s-not-just-a-cutie
20:02:51
shinmera
Extremely targeted at specifically me because it stars a lame dude with a pretty and (unconventionally) cool and independent gf.
20:05:20
shinmera
Anyway, it's a bit too obvious in what it *is*, so it's triggering the innermost roots of my brainstem that are composed of 100% doubt, spite, and distrust, hence the negative co-reaction.
20:43:52
shinmera
Anyway, speaking of romance-ish stuff, I'm sad that the translation of Ka Ku Shi Go To stopped
20:44:08
shinmera
That one was very interesting to me because it's specifically about how messy people's perceptions are
20:44:22
shinmera
It in turn follows the perspectives of each of the main cast and how they perceive the rest